The February 2nd, 2018 me never thought I would be writing this race report. That me was sitting alone in a Shenzhen hotel room wondering how the hell I was going to make it through another day. That me was far away from home and wrestling with a million demons. That me wasn't happy or really running much at all. The December 11th, 2018 me is still in shock that I can say I entered, was selected to run (by the skin of my teeth) and finished the Hellgate 100k. The race is small in field by design and daunting in it's rugged toughness. As you climb and descend the course changes effortlessly, slyly from technical to flowing and then back again. Just as you become comfortable with your pace and find your flow you realize it is time to adjust. Adjust, because now you are on a gravel road. Adjust, because now you struggle to find even footing. Adjust. My training was pretty good heading into Hellgate. After getting in on the second chance decision by the board